Heartbeats

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I walked through the night, and found him there. 

It wasn't God, He wasn't missing.

This is the one I always wonder about.

Wondering if he'll be part of this life or not. 

Wondering if he's real. 

Wondering if I'm crazy for wondering anymore...

And on this particular night as I wondered, I looked up and whispered. 

Whispered a wish to the stars I couldn't see, about the man I couldn't find.

Then the night went still, and for a moment I felt a wondering back.

The beat of a heart.

It echoed mine.

Curiosity. 

Confusion, excitement, 

Hope.

Then the red and blue lights of a patrol car swept by, slicing the air.

And in their passing left just God and I, 

walking the empty street.

Only this time, I wasn't left wondering.

-Shayla




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